So you call yourself an intuitive woman…

As happens with women, once a month unless augmented… comes the cycle. Men fear it… the wrath it may bring… the seemingly petty behavior. ” She is fine the rest of the month”… what is this emotional outburst happening with the moon?

Good question. Thanks for asking.

I am a woman. Once a month I hate myself… if I am really lucky I go a long cycle and hate myself two weeks out of the month; meanwhile feeling confused and misdirected.

Wait a minute. I read that women have the ability to be most intuitive during “that time of the month.” You know, they are tied to the “lunar cycle” and everything…

Shouldn’t that mean that a woman should be most clear in her motives and path during that time…?

Only if she is “in tune,” I read.

“In tune”?!?!?!

You mean “raging bitch”? “Indecisive?” “Moody?” “Hormonal”?

You want to be held… you want to be left alone… you need to talk…. things just aren’t right… you never seem to feel this way the rest of the month… The one you “love” is so over come with flaws and idiosyncracises based off your escalated PMS perception that you could just kick something and leave… leave it all…


This is your life, right? Your relationship? Everything you have worked for?!?!

And yet every month, at the approximate same time, you have an “issue.”

Sometimes it’s how attractive you do not feel around him, or how he doesn’t seem to care about what you say; or the way you feel like he SHOULD know this happens every month, and he always reacts inappropriately.

He doesn’t care what your going through, he just can’t wait until you get through with it, so things can go back to “normal” and you can act like yourself.

Your perceptions, analyzations, and observations as a woman, are in over drive. He doesn’t have ovaries, honey, he wouldn’t understand.

But, nonetheless, you start to feel crazy. You don’t recognize this behavior as something of the norm but every 4 plus weeks. Your life feels inadequate, why?

Our bodies are strange things. As a woman, ruled by the moon, susceptible to pattern cycles with close women, anything is possible. Women are more susceptible to be impregnated by extra marital lovers who fulfill emotional and physical needs. Anything is possible.

If as women we are more susceptible to be “in tune” with nature, if we so choose, based off our lunar connection, is it so far fetched to ask the question that women watch their insecurities when they bleed?

Cyclical fighting about the same thing, personal insecurities arising about the same issue, the same lack of feelings of fulfillment in the balance of a partner energies to ours, meet me again, same time, next month and I will whine about the same thing…

Valid topics for discussion, don’t you think?

But we cast these things off. We shove them to the side. We tell ourselves, as women, that we are neurotic for feeling this way, it’s only once a month only 12/52 of our life… which broken down to a smaller fraction is you know, still a big percentage. It isn’t normal or healthy…. or is it?

Could your body be telling you something, your mind does not want to accept for the desire of personal fulfillment?

If you believed that you didn’t have to work a job you hate to survive in this world; would you believe that the intimate love you have with a partner had to be dramatic or forceful or probing in communication most of the time… or would you believe that “partners,” “lovers,” or “husbands and wives,” had a system of simpatico, or understanding between one another… a telepathy, a reading of energies, an observation of beings.

The idealistic life, is one of enjoyment, and feeling connectedness to ones environment and personal self through the interactions, intimacies and lessons of involvement through relationships, however deep or shallow.

To believe that humans were put on this earth for more than suffering and enslavement, takes relationships to another level. If you know “love” or “connection, ” I ask you, how many times has that love or partner felt a need to serve you in some way before you can serve yourself or ask in need in order to show that their love transcends verbal communication. How often do we want to assume that someone knows what we want so that we do not have to ask? Lovers who are deeply involved in the spiritual co-creative nature of living many times fulfill those needs before we have to ask.
Call it telepathy, or knowing, or good guess work; but there is no better feeling than having the person you care about care about you before you can ask them to care. A desire to connect, to rebuild the bond after time apart is important.

We want more than we get. We go against the Four Agreements and assume that the other person knows what we want before we can ask… but what about the deeper and more intense agreement between those that goes unspoken; between those passing by on similar wave lengths? Those people in our lives who do not come judge or assume, who come in so perfectly, filling space in just the right way, at the right time, teaching us not everything has to be a struggle. That person who usually comes in as the perfect friend or lover, who in that first six weeks of “getting to know your biology” is brilliant in the interaction of precognition. The knowing before one speaks, the ability to give above expectation as if it was all being laid out like a perfectly mapped dream.

Most of us have had it at one time or another… most recognizably it was mother with a hot cup of cocoa after a cold day in the snow. But, my mother is long gone now 25 years so it is not her that I speak, but I thank her for the ability to have this notion to see… There are times when people come into our life and they can give us as we give them in the most extraordinary way. It is a telepathy, it is a “foreknowing” it is a relationship on another level.

Some call it sensitive. They say that one is so observant, consciously or not, that they can feel what another person is feeling and there by preemptively tune into that persons needs.

What if, through the suspension of reality, you imagined for a moment that those moments of blissful precognition with one another didn’t have to be hit or miss on such an intangible level? what if our sympathetic nervous system was sympathetic and therefor symptomatic of our external relations?

The sympathetic nervous system is our fight or flight response; which is our natural biochemical response to confrontation or stress… Believe it or not, our biological systems do not ask us to ” talk thing over,” or “work things out.” Our biological bodies tell us that in confrontation, we should defend ourselves for survival by fighting or running…

But, we are not cavemen. We are intelligent; technologically minded, evolving people. And as space on this earth decreases and global communication increases, we need to find answers to the more puzzling questions of proper interaction with one another through the sympathetic vibe, and woman’s contribution through her connection to her body and the tides of our planet.

Best friends have it, intense lovers have it, twins, siblings, and parents have it with their children…. it is a spiritual connection through the heart, the reflex of love.

Women bleed on a fairly regular monthly basis and they feel a sadness inside, a lack of connection. Perhaps it is the lack of connection they feel to their sister women. The wonderful nurturing love of appreciation for sharing womanhood, the need to build a feminine community. And perhaps it is the sensitive empathetic response to all the injustices happening in the world and a desire to right wrongs. Or maybe it is the unconscious sadness that the one you love, does not love in the same way and would best be suited to another lover, but the conscious knowledge that letting love go to pursue more lofty goals, is bold and heart wrenching.

Humanity is capable of far more than we give it credit for. Telepathy; love, big picture perspective, evolution of a species. It is all possible if we listen to our inner selves and the wisdom it can share. Biology is strong, but our mind and bodies are stronger especially when used in tandem.

Being a woman is hard. The biology of it is tasking at times. Regardless, it is in tune with the nature outside of us, and the personal evolution happening inside. Bleeding is the shedding of a months worth of emotion, and energetic input and ou;put. Investments into relationships and endeavors, contributions to the collective consciousness. It is not mild, useless, or lame. It can be painful, beautiful, eye opening and catalytic. It is purposeful. As women we give life to children, art, love, nature, and opportunity. Through the wisdom of our moon we can see the influence of those gifts upon us. It is meant to open our eyes and hearts to personal truth.

If you are unsatisfied and saddened by your moon, ask why. Are you still lacking a love for yourself and an acceptance of your body? Are you in situations with peers, lovers, or acquaintances that do not sit right with you? Do you live YOUR PERSONAL TRUTH? Do you believe in yourself. Do you feel inadequate or confused?…. Does it only seem to strike once a month?

You, as a woman, are an amazing creature. Listen deeply to your body. It is your physical vehicle and it will send signs and symptoms to your malady, it’s internal wisdom guided by heart will give a cure. We can regenerate our lives over and over if we allow it to be so. If you need love, find you love yourself… if you feel a need to communicate your desires, may it be… and if you find yourself surrounded with a life that does not suit you, with those who do not love and respect you, respect yourself enough to move on.

It is not easy, but it is matter of life or death. Your body will only wait so long for you to listen to
it’s voice before it will break down and give up… it will warn you because deep down we all deserve the best. Your survival should not be life taking task. We are here to enjoy the beauty around us, and the beauty in ourselves. First we must accept our own beauty and then open up to the miracle around us, once you accept that the birds, bees and chipmunks are cared for you too, will understand that we are worth the same grace.

Be a strong woman, empowered by the internal knowing, blessed by the gift of life and creation. Live to be the feminine example you did not have. We come in every shape and size from every curve of Gaia’s hip, born of her mud and blood,kissed by her celestial lip. We are her daughters, sisters, mothers, voices of her love. We are WOMEN, we are bold, we blessings from above.

May the wisdom of your moon bring you to be better women, because women, are our future.

Observant of these changes- January 29, 2010

I haven’t written in a while as I feel thrown into the waves of chaotic energy that seem to permeate this socio-economic state. We see the struggle from sea to polluted sea. But there is hope beneath the waters and above the clouds. Still we hunger for something other than this mother of turmoil boiling around us.
Natural disasters, personal failures, and realizations of a need to change ourselves because our government doesn’t seem to have the functional consciousness to do it for us. We waited to have a president who used “Change” as slogan bribing voters that one man could change it all for us, if we were to choose him. We have done just that; only to see that the bigger wheel is already turning. He is just a cog in a bigger machine full of other cogs and the votes tallied to bring him into office have no real baring on the decisions he will make, or the laws he will pass once in charge.
You see, some one IS in charge of him. A whole panel of people are in charge of him, and we have been led to believe that it is US, the American People. However, it is not to us that he answers. If it was would anti-abortion be an issue so long after Roe vs. Wade? Would we have the fear of possible imprisonment for not having health coverage? Would our countries leader really have given international immunity to Interpol International Police force?
The enslavement of American citizens has gone on long enough, and yet you can look forward to more incidents to occur causing fear and keeping us further enslaved. They don’t want you to think for yourself, they want you to be motivated to make decisions out of fear.
I am not afraid. I am not alone. And the uprising of the new Evolution says we can no longer revolve around this old paradigm. Somethings gotta break, and somethings gotta give. Which will you be? Breaking down to fear, or Giving the world light and real hope in a time when things look too dark.
We are not the sum and total of our government, but we should be in an ideal symbiosis; which is the government for the people, thereby the people supporting the government. It’s time to take it back and give that bitch a makeover.
My suggestion: Get some real women in there to clean house, cause the momma’s are coming home, and if momma ain’t happy, ain’t no one happy. And who cares about you more than anyone else? Usually Momma and Grandmomma. I like the idea of a future wherein not only do I get great effective low cost or free health care, but I also get a hug and a hot bowl of the best chicken noodle this generation has ever tasted. Take it from me Fuck the Revolution, let’s be the New Evolution.


1/29/2017 Update:  Here we are SEVEN YEARS later… and?  Different party, same ole problems.