She looks at her reflection, it just won’t teach the lessons she’s looking to learn. All these consequences for risky actions; scandalous transactions have this girl attached to unreliable sources.
Forces of nature, put her there. Aware, the whole time, of her shortcomings and the risks. She slips across these thoughts like skipping rocks across water, bouncing a few times before they disappear.
Walk along these empty streets with me, just breathing the fresh air and carefully walking in darkening grace. This place, right now, is silent solitude; a lovely little interlude from this crazy life.
A momentary escape, late at night, a people packed room. A slow progression forward, not bored at all by our conversation. Walking to your home in synchronicity, in these moments of clarity, I want your kiss desperately so.
Did you find me witty and adept? Appealingly unkempt and at times a bit bereft of rational thoughts? Are my motions too fast, did I interact too boldly? Knowing I only want luscious lips on mine. I want to redefine my single-hood.
I am a walking effigy of innocent integrity; he begins to boldly kiss me; softly, sweetly and passionately. It’s been over a year since I breathed the breath of another. The wonder of such newness! The friction of a first kiss; a moment I have missed so desperately!
It is my weakness; this physical plea test, the best part of the beginning. The feeling of winning the touch of a beautiful stranger. Later he hours go until no more darkness rests on this hemisphere; the queer night of indulgent lips lock in lust and curiosity.
He even still smiles at me; not as bad as it could be. Thank God, he didn’t want to sleep with me; but I want to see him again so badly! I have got to breathe, because this has only just begun with a question and a look. A smile. A chat.
Chatting over a cigarette for a while, walking back east in style; a wily hippie at my right. A perfect night cap. How is it I find him so appealing? His physicality reels me forward into kinesthetic wonder. And I question if he rocks like thunder under the sheets.
What am I thinking? I am again forgetting to breathe. The lack of oxygen is clogging my senses. Again I feel reckless and senseless confusion. I give these illusions abandon. I am not yet stranded. I should be celebrating my independence.