I am making a strong guess that everyone who chooses Fit Body Boot Camp for the first time, has some nervousness or anxiety going in on the first day.  Actually, let’s be honest, they are probably nervous from the day they sign up until the end of the first class.

The bulk  of my anxiety happened the night before.   I hate nights before events, and this is certainly an Event (to Transform myself).  I attempted to get to bed at a modest 9 pm.  Which is hard for me on any given day.  Usually I go to bed between 12 and 3 am.

My first goal was to hit the 5 am class.  I wanted to get in there and get it over with because I had already spent four days wondering what exactly it would be like.

I got up at 4:10 after a restless night of “half sleep.”  I had showered the night before, already picked out my clothes… breakfast was the problem.  I often time, have a hard time eating food first thing when I get up, as it makes me nauseated.  I wanted a shake, but felt bad about running the noisy blender so early in the  morning.  I ended up settling on  a banana with peanut butter.  (Which in retrospect was not nearly what I needed for what I was about to experience.)

I got into the gym at about a quarter to five.  Night time Trainer, Ashley was there, bright eyed (except for the contact lens issues) and bushy tailed.  She gave a friendly introduction and a warm welcome.  There were a couple of other women there, getting themselves ready for warm up.

I wasn’t sure what to do, and as I am willing to admit; I have  a hard time initiating my own introductions.  So I sat on the mat doing some light stretches as more participants slipped in the door.

Finally at 4:59ish, Ashley  took to the middle of the circle and began to explain todays circuit of exercises.  There were four stations, each featuring two activities that would be repeated a few times.  I lost count of how many  sets  were happening, because this class is VERY high paced.

We began  with  some warm up sets of stationary exercises, and then quickly moved into the stations.

Now let me tell you, the hardest part  (for me); was facing myself, head on in the warm ups. In just a few short minutes, I could feel the effect of smoking cigarettes for  ten years.  I could tell I had lost most of my strength and endurance that I had only a short three years ago, from working on a sheep farm.

All I could think, is “oh shit, this is bad.”

I can’t tell you how many seasoned Fitters were in the class, or how many newbies; so if your excuse for NOT trying this program, is that you are afraid of people watching you…Let me tell you now; There is NO time to watch any one else.  The exercises require proper form, and it is vital to pay attention to what you are doing with your own body.  Ashley a, attentively walked around, adjusting those who needed assistance in form while encouraging every one to keep going.

At the second station, my body reminded me that I was not properly fueled and I started to feel nauseous and light headed.  Ashley brought me an apple juice and I took a little breather.  I took about a 30 second recoup and did my best at continuing.

Periodically I  feel sick, and sip more juice, breathe a little and get back into motion.

I find myself having some mental frustration that I am not already good at this.  Usually I can just pick up an activity for the first time, and feel confident.  I understand that not everyone feels that way about themselves, and that I am a self perfectionist by nature.  I have never done most of these activities before and admittedly I am out of shape.

I need to be compassionate with myself because, this is hard work.  It took time to get where I am now; unhappy about my body.  And in the process of being unhappy with myself, I haven’t been very compassionate with myself.

I believe that the accountability that Fit Body provides, will assist me and many others to learn to love; not just accept themselves. To feel strong enough to improve themselves in whatever way they are most inspired.

Being happy with your body is just one step in feeling confidant overall.

Imagine all the time you spent mentally hating on your body; imagine all the times you have complained about your body out loud.

Now imagine what it would be like to have all that energy back.  To have the mental freedom to not constantly worry about your bodily insecurities.  Sounds refreshing, right?

I don’t have any doubt, that The Fit Body Boot camp will live up to it’s claims, as long as I stay out of my own way.