What kind of feelings does it convey for you? Can you conjure the words?
Does it leave you feeling some what deflated, and limp? Weak or powerless?
Maybe it feels productive some how…earned? A relief.
How about the word “abandon”?
Is the feeling you get from this word visceral? Deep and wide, like some sort of void?
Or perhaps it makes you feel free? Without attachment and strings?
Words, words, words.
Perceptions, definitions, placation, sublimation, choices in participation… a positive and negative to every situation…silly souls sitting in stagnation.
Ok, words. Powerful things. Creatures with a life of their own, they are; these, words.
Triggers, even… or some may say. We know through Gnosis words are magic, and organic, and mystic upside down simplistic ways of toying with physical manifestation.
I am doing it now… though through no specific attempt of my own. This is just something that happens when I step bare foot into the flow that is already occurring. Tonight, the water is a temperature which sets well with my blood.
In early 2003, I had moved home to “regroup”. In my spare time I was participating in self led yoga. I received an unexpected and green Christmas greeting from a friend on the West Coast.
I found it all so inspiring, and the weather so conducive, that despite the 30 degree temperature, I found a cozy spot of intense sun and 90 degree reflection on the deck and in that Vitamin D bliss orb, I embarked on a transition in my artistic workings.
A pose came to mind. The simplest pose there is… Childs Pose. And that pose to me was Submission…. and Abandonment.
Strangely enough, it’s rich quality had absolutely nothing to do with anything negative.
In yoga, Child’s pose is usually a resting spot between inversions or as a way to end a sequence of moves. When you examine how the body is positioned, knees tucked into the chest, forehead on the floor… arms extended out; it appears a drastic bow. As the Muslims do when they pray… or as a child looks, asleep. As though they fell asleep suddenly, submitting to their own exhaustion.
Literally, we think about submission… and to many, it means “giving up.”
Wikipedia says “Submission is the acknowledgement of the legitimacy of the power of one’s superior or superiors.”
This brings up the questions..Hmmm who is MY Superior? Why would I submit to anything less? Why does ‘submission’ and ‘submit’ feel like dirty words? Why am I compelled to “feel submission” from a Higher Stand point? (More about this in a minute…)
How many people feel positive about THAT word? I mean, honestly I think we could create a whole subculture of people who could associate to the best and worst attributes that would be connected to the the “Abandonment Tribe.”
Of all the situations that have fallen through, for the millions of hopeful souls out there… or for all the parents who died before their child’s ideal prime, only to be blamed in the big cosmic game, that is… Abandon (ment) has received quite a nasty rap… and yet it has SO MANY definitions…
People rarely take time to think and talk about all the things; people, and ideas that they have chosen to abandon over time, in order to grow and clear room for the new. People have take sick pleasure in the seeming abuse of “being abandoned.”
It is an easy route to sympathy. It is a scapegoat meant only for rainy day amusement.
Abandonment is SO BIG. And WAY LESS nasty that we have given it credit for.
To loose all abandon; is to let go totally. No longer is there consequence or forethought. There is only the action which exists in the moment.
Many people find that to be dangerous and scary. Abandonment has earned it’s bad rap through the perception of personal experience mixed equal parts, Fear God Complex.
Think about all the best parts of not giving a fuck what others think. To abandon worry, or care… many find this irresponsible and once they have partaken in it, find themselves in a retaliation cycle of guilt.
A person can walk with abandon and submission with out walking at all in negativity…
To walk and not care, to feel bliss and blessed by being regardless?
Yep, it’s pretty easy to do. In fact your heart already knows how to… You live and let live… You speak your mind when it feels right, You love despite doubt. You breathe deep and enjoy the air in your lungs. You do what is best for your Higher Self… you say “No” when your heart tells you… You cry at the beauty of nature with no shame… You see something GREATER in YOURSELF and in OTHERS… and YOU ARE SICK OF DENYING or pushing it to the wayside.
Submission and Abandon… well they are like two adopted sisters from the ghetto, living with a “good Christian family.” The bad name branded through perception as a double edged sword. But really they try just as hard with their lessons, and they show up when you don’t expect them to… and they show, they are not mutually exclusive when it comes to duality…
So Abandon all reason and doubt… Submit to Love, light and Laughter.